[EVEN THOUGH THIS LOOKS LONG, PLEASE READ IT AND HELP ME!]
My name is Sarah, I’m 14, a rising freshman, and I live in an apartment complex with my dad (who works all day). Before I can ask about my problems, you need to know a little more about my history. I don’t want you to think I’m any different than you because I’m not… except for one little thing.
I have a hereditary anxiety and depression disorder that my mom passed down to me. It’s some kind of chemical imbalance. I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I was put on Prozac through 6th grade but it made me act up so we tried Wellbutrin which made me sick after 2 weeks. So through 7th and 8th grade, I’ve been on Zoloft. I felt stable enough to try and ease my way off the meds after school was out. (8th grade summer) I was doing better than ever without them all the way up until Wednesday August 20th. My dad and I were sitting at breakfast when all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I got the symptoms of an anxiety attack. Tingling on the back of my neck and shoulders, nausea, shaking, and an over all feeling of fear. Like I said, it came out of nowhere, for no reason. When we got home I tried to relax but nothing worked. So my dad gave me my medicine back and I started taking the prescribed 50mg of Zoloft again. (It’s usually suppost to take a week to fully kick in) Anyways, I had the anxiety until I was just too sleepy to notice it. I thought… maybe it will pass overnight, but it didn’t. The next morning as soon as I opened my eyes I felt it again. I just needed somebody to be with, so I went outside and got a couple friends to talk to but it still didn’t go away. For some reason when the sun is down and it’s dark outside I feel better. Anyways, this has been going on for the longest 4 days of my life. Every day, it’s the same damn thing and I’m so tired. I can’t eat and I already lost 6 lbs. I can’t help whats happening to me. It’s like a curse that’s ruining my life. I’m in the middle of an attack right now and I feel so dizzy. I WANT IT TO STOP!!! BUT THE MEDECINE ISN’T WORKING! I feel so helpless. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD I’VE TRIED TO FIND A WAY TO STOP IT!!! I’m NOT suicidal, but life just isnt worth living like this. please, is there any other way to get rid of it???
IM BEGGING FOR HELP
Tags: 3 years, anxiety and depression, apartment, back of my neck, chemical imbalance, couple friends, curse, dad, damn thing, days of my life, depression disorder, freshman, meds, nausea, next morning, prozac, shoulders, symptoms of an anxiety attack, wellbutrin, zoloft
