
I already know a lot about my anxiety, I went to a psychologist, but it didn’t help much, well, it did a bit, but obviously I’m not cured, and I never will be.
I’m wondering what social anxiety is, and does it naturally come with anxiety, like when I’m in public, I’m so paranoid of everyone, I think everyone is out to get me
I’m 15 and if I’m with my mum I still need her to come to the toilet with me and everything, the other day she asked me to wait outside the shop with all the shopping so she didn’t have to carry it and I said ok but I was so scared that every person that walked past had a hidden motive and that they were a bad person
I always panic when I’m around strangers, I hate catching the train and bus home from school, I’m irrationally scared of it, I worry that someone crazy might be on the train or bus, or that someone will sit next to me or stare at me
When I’m sitting at the bus stop, if someone such as a man over 20 sits next to me or an indecent looking person sits next to me I basically have a panic attack, once there actually was a crazy person who sat next to me and started talking to me, I’d never been so scared or worried
I have heaps of fears, some irrational too, I have normal ones like spiders and the dark, but also of completely random things like saliva and mammograms (don’t even ask, I don’t even know)
Sometimes I think I’m ok, but my physical symptoms are still there, even at school I get really panicky because I feel there’s too many people around and I get really dizzy and get headaches and feel sick
How could I deal with any of this?
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