years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, outburst, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, rage, sentences, teenage years, worries

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, outburst, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, rage, sentences, teenage years, worries

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, outburst, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, rage, sentences, teenage years, worries

I also posted this on the psychology board… not sure whats the correct placement for this question.

I am a 16 year old girl and I have been struggling my entire life. I have met with several doctors before but I feel like the things they have diagnosed me with dont quite explain all of my symptoms. What I would appreciate you guys doing is listening to my symptoms and then giving me some feedback on possible diagnosises that I could speak with my new doctor about. a "*" means it is a very prominent symptom.
*eating disorder symptoms (low self esteem, restricting food intake, overexcersizing, counting calories, intentionally throwing up "bad" foods that I was not suposed to eat, etc.)
***self-injurous thoughts and actions (cutting, suicidal thoughts, suicidal attempts)
*anxiety symptoms including panic attacks
-depressive symptoms (hopelessness, lack of motivation, frequent sad mood)
-impulsive behavior (both big and small things, but either way I’m not thinking before I act)
*history of traumatic events (sexual, physical, and verbal abuse)
-history of being bullied and teased (especially about weight)
*substance abuse
*denial ("I can go on a diet and not trigger my eating disorder", "I can control my drug use", etc)
-short term memory problems (long term too but not as bad)
*lack of concentration and discipline
-hyperactive behavior (can’t sit still, can’t sleep, TOO friendly- talks to too many people too much too fast)
***co-dependency
-very, very angry and irritable, but only takes it out on myself
-VERY infrequent outbursts (screaming, crying and physically hurting people around me)
-mild auditory and visual hallucinations (went away with medication)
*paranoia (thinking friends and loved ones are secretly plotting against me, everyone is lying to me, people are folllowing me and watching me, etc)
-VERY intelligent (145 IQ) but does poorly in school
-delusions (ex. thought my pet mouse escaped from the cage and was inside of my clothes… the mouse never left the cage) (went away with medication)
-constantly changing my identity not only by clothes but by behavior (one day I’m an emo rocker chick, the next I am a full out hippie, etc)
-entire lack of trust. 0% trust ANYONE
-cleptomania (stealing addiction)
I’d say those are the most important ones… what do you think..?
Keep in mind, any or all of these symptoms could be due to substance abuse, consistent mistreatment and disrespect my entire life (including family), and rape
Just post whatever you think it could be. I’ve been living with it as long as I can remember and I can’t figure it out myself.

Tags: abuse history, Anxiety Symptoms, co dependency, counting calories, diagnosises, eating disorder symptoms, hyperactive behavior, impulsive behavior, lack of concentration, lack of motivation, low self esteem, new doctor, pet mouse, psychology board, quot quot, sad mood, short term memory, short term memory problems, suicidal attempts, visual hallucinations

i need reassurance , please help .

my psychiatrist is adamant i DONT have bi polar , only borderline personality.

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, rage, reassurance, sentences, teenage years, worries

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, outburst, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, rage, sentences, teenage years, worries

i need reassurance , please help ! ( clenched teeth )

my psychiatrist is adamant i DONT have bi polar , only borderline personality.

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist also accepted i have PTSD traits to.

im 31 and have endured a very hard life with abuse, victimization, mental abuse all throughout .

my symptoms from the age of 16 which got worse as years past by are :

mind racing, cluttered, scattered thoughts, forgetting what i was thinking minutes before —obsessive worries— repetitive asking questions on yahoo about same life circumstances —– impulsive outbursts of rage in public, difficult controlling aggression and rage ; antisocial anger towards people ; spacing out ( dissociation ) – persecutory paranoia , agoraphobia , intense panic and anxiety feelings when outside , palpitations ; a feeling of feeling abandoned and out of control : always found it difficult to concentrate and absorb information : ( although ive read books and understood them ) : keep having to re read sentences to understand them : mind drifts off whilst reading a page of words.

always had low self esteem, difficulty interacting, forming and maintaining friendships . im very intellectual and are often told im very intelligent, understand things well, talk well , and have a good mind. have a good imagination. can converse very well.

as a kid was quite hyperactive, always running around , but calmed alot into teenage years.

my mind always races every day, racing thoughts, keep forgetting things , my mind feels scattered with thoughts, difficulty trying to organise and structure.
have obsessive worrying thoughts about physical, mental health.

everyday i get mood swings, from feeling totally depressed and despairing one minute , then the next minute , ‘ ok ” again – if im in a severe depressive low , then someone talks to me, reassures me, gives me clarity —- my mood will suddenley lift to feeling ok again –

so would that rule out having bi polar ??

i used to have aggressive outburst in public, where stress would build up…my thoughts would race…disorganised….get paranoid that people were threatening me or persecuting me , get jealous of happy people — than i would just end up losing it like a mad man, threaten people attack, lash out at strangers….

this has greatly improved for years now….i learned to control my behaviour, been seeking help. even though psychotherapy isnt available because of lack of resources.

i often worry though do my symptoms mean any other disorder other than borderline personality disorder ??

like : OCD , GAD , bi polar , add , ?? what do you think ?

i lived as a reclusive for many years, developed agoraphobia , and only go out to pay bills do shopping etc – i have bad anxiety and panic attacks when i go out, hyper vigillant , cant venture far from my neighborhood anymore etc. i stay in my apartment most of the time etc.

Tags: aggression, asking questions on yahoo, borderline personality disorder, clarity, clenched teeth, dissociation, drifts, friendships, life circumstances, low self esteem, mental abuse, mood swings, panic and anxiety, paranoia, physical mental health, psychiatrist, reassurance, sentences, teenage years, worries

whe I am at the store, I wonder if I look like I am crazy to other people. Every morning these past 2 weeks, I immediately have an anxious feeling, and it is like a huge worry, but I am not sure why. It is hard to fall asleep at night, and sometimes I think I have wired thoughts, though I don’t hear voices, or anything quite like that. Instead, I worry about people liking me, and what I look like in public. I wonder where I should rest my hands, how I should stand, or if I stand out in a crowd. I stay at home a lot, and I don’t really like to go out by myself. My stomache has the bad kind of nervous butterflies, and I just want to start feeling normal again. I wa prescribed welbutrin, but I haven’t started taking it yet. Sometimes, I feel a little out of it, like in a dream like state.
I don’t think I have any problems with my self esteem, so I am not sure how to explain the nervousness in public. I have no idea what it is, I just feel so wierd and strange. It is a very uncomfortable feeling. My emotions are a bit too much sometimes, and if you met me, you would never guess that I have anxiety. People have told me that I can be quite confidant, gregarious, and charismatic, so I am not sure that it is low self esteem. I just worry about things that I really wish I wouldn’t worry about.

Tags: anxiety, anxious feeling, confidant, crowd, emotions, low self esteem, nervous butterflies, nervousness, stomache, voices, worry

Hi,,
I suffer from anxiety
I ‘always’ have it ‘all day’ long.
I dont know why
I have a good home, nice parents and everything
Im really scarred, iv had a panic attack before i though i was going to die.
I felt fire threw my veins, a headache, guilty feeling

please help me!!
I went to a firework show and i just couldnt enjoy myself
But the thing is the anxiety doenst come and go…
its always there!!!
im only 13, i dont do bad thing, iv never heart anyone, i dont steal.

i started having anxiety for about 8 months now?
is it puberty, whormons? is it ganna go away?
i made a promise to myself if its not gone when im 20 im going to kill myself.

Physical Symptoms:

clenching teeth or jaw
tightened muscles
holding one’s breath X
sleeping problems
racing heart beat
breathing difficulties X
chest pain XXXXX
hyperventilation
irritability X

Emotional Symptoms:

irritability X
sadness X
depression XXXXXX
low self-esteem
loneliness
"numb" emotions XXXX
explosive emotions
feeling guilty XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

i put an x of what i feel, its so painful. i cant take it anymore im on the edge, pleasee tell me whats wrong im so scared! im actuallly crying…and im a guy.
im not on any kind of meds btw

Tags: anxiety, breathing difficulties, btw, chest pain, emotional symptoms, emotions, headache, heart beat, irritability, loneliness, low self esteem, muscles, panic attack, puberty, racing heart, sadness, sleeping problems, veins, xxxx, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

im 30 and ive suffered , rage , aggression, ptsd , low self esteem and paranoia, agoraphobia, high panic and anxiety for a long time now..

i suffered bad bullying, taunting in childhood and in my early adult life, i bottled up a lot of anger and used to have aggressive outbursts regularly.

suffered physical attacks, had rage outburst, i have a criminal past etc.

ive always struggled to be confident and assert myself throughout my life, let myself be manipulated and bullied until rage would build , and i would snap and lose it..

ive always been very sensitive to criticism, words people say, their opinions etc.

many times in the present i notice if i feel imposed upon, or manipulated or spoken down to , or intimidated or any confrontation where i need to speak up and be assertive..

i start to panic, have a panic attacks, doubt myself, lose my confidence , feel intimidated , lose my voice , feel unable to assert myself, clam up, feel scared of asserting myself, become floundered and flustered etc.

then because i feel im inadequate or weak or others have made me feel inferior because i cant assert , i quickly become ‘ enraged ‘ and aggressive and feel like causing a confrontation because i perceive ive failed at being assertive..

what is this ? is it ptsd symptoms ? or an inadequacy or weakness of me ?

Tags: adult life, aggression, aggressive outbursts, anger, clam, confidence, confrontation, inadequacy, long time, low self esteem, outburst, panic and anxiety, Panic Attacks, paranoia, rage

As of recent I have been suffering from what I think are panic attacks. They seem to fit the criteria for what panic attack is (increased breathing rate, faster heart beat, choking sensation, tons of anxiety, looking like I’m about to faint/that I’m sick) but they tend it last quite a long time. They can be anywhere from 5 minutes to the longest one which was nearly 3 hours of pretty constant symptoms which eventually landed me in the nurse.

I guess the first time I was aware of myself having panic attacks was this february when in class I was suffering extreme anxiety and the various other symptoms untill I eventually started sobbing and then collapsed right in the middle of class.

They are always triggered in social situations like in the class rom or when I need to approach someone.

With deep breathing I generally can keep them under control, but all the anxiety I feel is just hell.
I’d like to add some more details

I’m an 18 year old senior with solid grades. I really have no close friends and suffer from this anxiety with pretty much everyone, no exception.

I can handle just being in a group usually, but that is when I don’t have to actaully confront anyone or anything.

I have been on Zoloft for 2 week nows to treat my depression and anxiety, but it really hasn’t done anything yet (I know it may take longer). As of Decemeber I just feel that all of my problems have been getting worse (the ammount of anxiety experienced, depression) even though I have been getting help.
My doctor mentioned anxiety reducing medecine that is not addictive, but they said they wanted to see if the zoloft alone would make a difference once they increase the dosage one more time and give it some time.
me and my counselor have tried the visualization technique, it really doesn’t help me.
The zoloft is for depression and as an SSRI can help reduce anxiety in some cases (or that is what I have been told).

Then yes there are lots of other things bothering me. I have extremly low self esteem, poor self image, lack of social skills, lots of stress and well me and my counsolor haven’t been able to really get very far in resolving anything. I don’t know what is the source of the problem, when I originally went to seek help I thought I have social anxiety disorder, but she doesn’t think so and says that it is the depression that is the cause for most of the problems, but I don’t really know the source for the depression.
to make it clear the zoloft is for my depression

Tags: ammount, breathing rate, close friends, counselor, deep breathing, depression, extreme anxiety, heart beat, long time, low self esteem, medecine, nows, nurse, panic attack, Panic Attacks, sensation, social situations, ssri, visualization technique, zoloft

I am a 16 year old girl and I have been struggling my entire life. I have met with several doctors before but I feel like the things they have diagnosed me with dont quite explain all of my symptoms. What I would appreciate you guys doing is listening to my symptoms and then giving me some feedback on possible diagnosises that I could speak with my new doctor about. a "*" means it is a very prominent symptom.
*eating disorder symptoms (low self esteem, restricting food intake, overexcersizing, counting calories, intentionally throwing up "bad" foods that I was not suposed to eat, etc.)
***self-injurous thoughts and actions (cutting, suicidal thoughts, suicidal attempts)
*anxiety symptoms including panic attacks
-depressive symptoms (hopelessness, lack of motivation, frequent sad mood)
-impulsive behavior (both big and small things, but either way I’m not thinking before I act)
*history of traumatic events (sexual, physical, and verbal abuse)
-history of being bullied and teased (especially about weight)
*substance abuse
*denial ("I can go on a diet and not trigger my eating disorder", "I can control my drug use", etc)
-short term memory problems (long term too but not as bad)
*lack of concentration and discipline
-hyperactive behavior (can’t sit still, can’t sleep, TOO friendly- talks to too many people too much too fast)
***co-dependency
-very, very angry and irritable, but only takes it out on myself
-VERY infrequent outbursts (screaming, crying and physically hurting people around me)
-mild auditory and visual hallucinations (went away with medication)
*paranoia (thinking friends and loved ones are secretly plotting against me, everyone is lying to me, people are folllowing me and watching me, etc)
-VERY intelligent (145 IQ) but does poorly in school
-delusions (ex. thought my pet mouse escaped from the cage and was inside of my clothes… the mouse never left the cage) (went away with medication)
-constantly changing my identity not only by clothes but by behavior (one day I’m an emo rocker chick, the next I am a full out hippie, etc)
-entire lack of trust. 0% trust ANYONE
-cleptomania (stealing addiction)
I’d say those are the most important ones… what do you think..?
Keep in mind, any or all of these symptoms could be due to substance abuse, consistent mistreatment and disrespect my entire life (including family), and rape
Just post whatever you think it could be. I’ve been living with it as long as I can remember and I can’t figure it out myself.

Tags: abuse history, Anxiety Symptoms, co dependency, counting calories, diagnosises, eating disorder symptoms, hyperactive behavior, impulsive behavior, lack of concentration, lack of motivation, low self esteem, new doctor, pet mouse, quot quot, sad mood, short term memory, short term memory problems, suicidal attempts, verbal abuse, visual hallucinations

A couple of months ago I presented a speech to my English class and was struck by a totally uncharacteristic panic attack. I could hardly process my words and I was shaking badly.
Granted, I am a naturally quiet person, but in this case it seemed so severe.
Now when ever I go to that lesson, I’m constantly nervous and dread answering questions. My teacher’s been annoyingly empathetic ever since, but I just want to continue the way it was.
Do you this this is down to self-confidence issues? How can I tackle this?
Thanks guys. Much appreciated.
Ironically, I’m actually in the school’s debating club. I just think the "aftershocks" are more psychological than to do with low self esteem.

Tags: aftershocks, answering questions, confidence issues, debating club, low self esteem, panic attack, quiet person, self confidence

i have been in my room for over 3 years. im 18 and a half now and cant take it anymore.i startin going to a pysch and on the first session he told me that depression social phobia low self esteem panic attacks and anxiety were the easiest things to cure. it has been 3 months now and i feel worse. i was put on effexor but hated it so i stoppd it and just today i got some xanax. it sort of helped with the fear but what my major problem is that after i take any step to overcome my fear like putting myself in a bad sitaution afterwards when im home i get this crushing lonely depressed feeling in my gut it feels like im going to throw up. and this feeling lasts until i go to sleep then when i wake up i feel terrible again. i thought cognative behaviour therapy would work but i feel A MILLION times worse after i try to face my fears. this last week was the first time in three years ive tried to put myself in a stressful situation and handle it. not only can i not handle it before and during the situation i get the depressed lonely sick feeling afterwards which doesnt leave me even when im on xanax. i dont know what else to do.
i have tried little steps to overcome anxiety and felt terrible before during and afterwards(afterwards was the worst) i have tried medium steps and tried huge steps but i still feel terrible. i juts want to be normal so bad im crying my eyes out right now
i have been going to my phsych for 3 months now and i dont want anti depressants because they make it impossible for me to ejaculate and when im better if i ever get there i want to be able to have sex
by phsych i mean counselling and he said that what i had was the eaist to treat and most curable….but its making me feel a million times worse i just want to die

Tags: 3 years, anti depressants, anxiety, behaviour therapy, depression, effexor, fear, fears, little steps, low self esteem, million times, Panic Attacks, phsych, pysch, sleep, stressful situation, xanax

I keep asking myself if I have AvPD, avoidant personality disorder. I am constantly thinking of what people think of me. I don’t avoid social interaction, but it’s like unless I feel safe I am not interested in talking or I am too scared to talk. There is a group of friends who I can be myself with, and I enjoy being with them most of the time, but I am constantly questioning myself on my actions and whether I’m an agreeable person to be with.
I don’t have any panic attacks in social situations. I’ve had 3 panic attacks, and those were from very stressful situations with my family.
I do get some physical symptoms, especially when I’m in class, or when I’m talking with someone I don’t know well, or when someone I don’t know well surprises me and starts talking with me. I sweat alot, and I think the most important symptom is having heavy racing thoughts. My mind feels blank all the time, and I experience extreme derealization all the time.

Even with people I know well, I am still constantly thinking and questioning myself if they don’t find me annoying, etc… It’s really hard to deal with this, and I’m starting to think I have some permanent mental disability which I will never be able to recover from. Can anyone relate to this? Has anyone recovered from this?
The thing that bothers me the most, is that I feel like I am not able to act like myself, even when I’m with the people I trust. It’s like I’m fulfilling this personnage they want me to be. It’s like I’m not being my real self. Perhaps that is all from the anxiety and the low self-esteem that I’m experiencing.
Is this what AvPD is? Or am I just over reacting because of my anxiety? It’s this though that keeps coming in my mind and I can’t get it out…

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Hey…
I have really bad problems with anxiety… When I’m with people I don’t know I can’t be myself, and I’m extremely shy. It’s hard for me to meet new people and start conversations. Whenever I’m talking with someone or I’m in front of a crowd of people, my thoughts are racing and I can’t let go of the irrational and obsessive thoughts that constantly circle my mind. Most of the time, I feel totally depersonalised and I feel out of myself. Sometimes, it gets really bad and I get this feeling I’m watching from above, it freaks the crap out of me.
I never get any panic attacks. I get some physical symptoms like over-sweating, or sometimes I even tremble, or my stomach hurts.
I’ve always thought I had anxiety, and I was diagnosed as having Anxiety by my mother’s psychiatrist. However, I’m worried I might have something alot worse. I found out about Avoidance Personality disorder, and I’m worried that this is what I have. I’m hoping to God it’s not, and that I can recover from this, but everytime I think about it, it seems impossible.
I don’t avoid social situations. I actually kind of enjoy going to parties and I especially enjoy hanging out with close friends, who I feel I can really be comfortable with. But, I feel I don’t accomplish as much socially as I could be, if I wasn’t having these obsessive thoughts and these feelings of low self-esteem that bring me down every day. I’m very edge and apprehensive, and unless I’m feeling comfortable or with close friends, I usually give off this aura of ’stay away from me’, ‘I’m really awkward", and I know people can sense this.
When I talk with people, I feel as though I’m boring, unattractive, that I bring nothing to the table, and I feel as though people don’t want to talk to me unless they’re really friendly. I’ll wonder if the person I’m talking to doesn’t like me, and I’ll automatically think that if the person’s reactions aren’t completely reassuring.
I feel constantly tired, even when I get enough sleep.

Is this all just normal anxiety?

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