for your distressing symptoms?

i have bad persecutory paranoia, where i dont trust alot of people, i think people are out to get me, are ostracizing me, want to ruin my life, prevent me from accomplishing my goals, im being talked about…..people know who iam..

i have racing, obsessive thoughts each day, where i cant hold a train of thought, i keep forgetting…100 thoughts, anxieties, insecurities, racing round my mind all at once…cant concentrate or organize anything.

i have high levels of panic and anxiety which has prevented me going out anywhere…i dont feel safe outside, feel ill be attacked or something will happen to me…i have panic attacks, where i cant catch my breath…im startled by loud noises..i only go out when i have to.
i have flashbacks to traumatic times, bullying times, when i was victimised and attacked.
i have rage and anger feelings constantly still, years ago i used to have rage outbursts regularly, but now i contol it, but get the feelings alot
i have disocociation when outside, when im in panic
and anxiety mode…i sort of just zone out..

these symptoms are very dibilitating and are impairing
my ability to go out, live my life or function…
i cant even leave my apartment now, unless i gots to.

my psychiatrist has organised some ”psychotherapy”
and an occupational therapist..
but he wont perscribe meds because he said their
addictive…..plus i heard the proper treatment
i should be getting is DBT dialectal behavioural
therapy.
so i feel as though im missing out and not getting the right
help, treatment or support.
can anyone give ‘ clear ‘ advise on what i should do?
i feel i exibit symptoms of PTSD , anxiety disorder, depression…..although ive not been diagnosed with these things.
just the BPD
ive suffered like this since 16…..im 30 now
i just want to get well and recover, accomplish a happy life.
this is why im so frustrated

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i was diagnosed with borderline personality years ago, the mental health system up to now has FAILED me and im still struggling to get the help and care i need at the age of 31 ..

i have ptsd symptoms , all the symptoms and want to be tested and diagnosed for it, as well as the borderline , i also suspect bipolar , as i have some bipolar symptoms – racing thoughts everyday, cant concentrate or hold a thought…..forget constantly……thoughts scattered everywhere….struggle to organize.

i have badanxiety, obsessive thoughts and worries , hyper vigillant outside…on edge…get panic attacks and palpitations…….struggle with a lot of rage and anger still……..years ago used to have involuntary outbursts of rage that used to ” take over ” me outside……just before the outbursts , id remember my thoughts racing badly, feel extremely anxious, hyper vigillant……feel paranoid that people were threatening me……used to struggle with a hostile angry posture….threatening…..on guard , then id just ‘ lose it ‘ – and start attacking people , lashing out……..making a public scene.

that was many years ago now, i controlled the outburst all by myself, without any psychiatric help…….and since then been searching for proper care and help…………….and via the internet, been trying to research my symptoms and whats wrong with me..

i put it down so far to my diagnosis years ago of BPD, – which i accept, but also know i have PTSD, and put alot of the symptoms because of that, im also wondering if bipolar plays a part to.

i have symptoms that bpd doesnt cover, throughout my life ive suffered great psychological abuse , a few physical attacks including a head injury in a street attack, when i lost control of rage in 1997 , my skull was never cracked, but the skin torn open on top, ive also suffered constantly being victimized in life.

alot of people wouldnt of been able to take the stuff what i took and still with stand.

recentley i stumbled on a question here which made me think, could any of my symptoms be caused by physical illness ? – ie : thyroid problems ?
if they were , what would i do about it ? how would i get tested ?, and what would i ask to be tested for ?

here was the question :

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AgMD2nL9y3_.5MQVlQJ_cj3ty6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090322142249AAA3WB7

it was only short and there was only one answer

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i feel weak and inadequete and inferior, because i want to be in control, calm and confident, able to hold my own, but with this extreme anxiety that im waiting for treatment for, i feel panicky, nervous and anxious regularly…..i struggle to go outside and do anything, i fear something pad will happen to me whilst out, i feel intimidated by other males sometimes outside to…..i jump and i’m easily startled at loud noises….i think i have ptsd to as well as the bpd, because of a traumatic life, where ive been bullied, abused, attacked and victimized.

how can i not view myself as being weak or inadequete or inferior because of my fear and anxiety condition?
i’m 30 now to
everytime i have to deal with people or go outside anywhere, i have major panic attacks….and it makes me feel ridiculous.

i want to be a calm, confident tough guy like lone wolf mc quade.

i put high expectations on myself but never make them.
i pressurize myself to be confident and calm, but i can never do it and always panic

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basically ive had a very hard life, suffered psychological and physical abuse, bullying etc – psychological abuse prolonged throughout years..
ive missed out on all the normal things in life, – relationships, work, education etc.
i have a criminal record 8 years ago, been in a mental hospital 8 years ago.
alot of bad things have befallen me – ive lived in my own apartment now for 5 years , been seeking help , trying to better my life….control my rage outburst that used to get years ago.

i live on disability and have hardly any possessions.

years ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality, im still struggling to get the right help and therapy , even after all these years – the mental health services have failed me in general ..

i also suffer with post traumatic stress disorder, i have all the symptoms, but ive not been diagnosed and need to get it diagnosed..

im now 31, my psychiatrist feels i dont have any other disorder or illness , like bipolar and all my symptoms cover borderline personality..
but i feel i have other disorders co existing that are going undetected with the BPD……..i see my psychiatrist tommorrow where i plan to raise this topic again.

i know i have ptsd as well as borderline personality that needs to be assessed and diagnosed , but i worry also i have ADHD and bipolar ?

heres my symptoms that ive had years :

mind racing everyday , scattered, muddled , disorganised thoughts.

- struggle to focus , cant hold onto a thought , 100 thoughts flooding my brain at once.

- forget things i thought of moments before – my head feels pressurized with the racing thoughts everyday .

- mood swings everyday , 1 moment in depths of despair, severley down , then to feeling ” ok ” the next minute.

- feeling angry, sad, worthless, hopeless , , lethargic, no energy to do things , wash dishes etc – quick to become enraged and aggressive.

-worrying constantly about the same things everyday , : physical health , my future , no hope , death, feeling trapped , traumatic past – obsessively worrying about it.

- feel jumpy ” panicky ” ” on edge ”

- get brief euphoric feelings , ” shortlived ” back to despairing and depressed , no energy , no energy to do chores, tidy up etc, clean my teeth etc.

- feeling like i have no future , ” theres no hope ” – hopelessness – feeling trapped in present situation.

- bad anxiety throughout everyday , phoning health helplines to check out physical symptoms ……thoughts racing wildly.

- constantly feeling my minds never at rest .

- racing thoughts everyday constantly worrying about everything – my physical imperfections , my 2 missing teeth etc , present situation , physical health.

- struggle to concentrate or focus , read a page of writing.

- racing thoughts , scattered thoughts , mind going blank , feeling disorganised and jumbled up – cant hold onto a racing thought, forget things a few moments later .

- still fight anger , rage feelings especially when outside in public – get ‘ reminders ‘ ‘ flashbacks ‘ ‘ paranoia ‘ ‘ reliving ‘ painful events , thats when rage takes me and i have to fight very hard not to lose my conduct.

- filled with panic , palpatations , very bad anxiety at same time, whilst outside.

- when i get racing thoughts feel very volatile to losing control of rage or losing control of conduct , have a feeling of feeling ‘ out of control ‘.

struggle with conduct still and rage emotions.

- startled responses , jumpy reactions , difficulty controlling rage feelings ,

- feelings of being ostracized by society , alienated by people , the systems against me.

- nightmares most nights , recalling past memories that resurface , bringing rage feelings and grief.

hypervigillant outside , hyper alert , on the defensive , get flashbacks – on edge all times when out.

- space out whilst outside , get dissocociation.

used to have rage outbursts and act antisocial towards people, lose control of rage involuntary and lash out -

controlled those outburst for years.

basically there all my symptoms , now i feel i have other disorders as well as ptsd and borderline personality, like ” bipolar ”

but my psychiatrist and mental health team dont thinks so, so what should i do tommorrow when i get the same reaction ?

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Background: Diagnosed with BPD and some other common problems that might come with (anxiety,etc). I refuse to go back on anti-psychotic/"anti-manic"s, but I have been having what I think are psychotic symptoms lately. When I first got placed in a psych hospital I was put on Anti-psychotics for hallucinations, but they subsided afterward and then after a few years i stopped taking them as they returned anyway.

: I have been having hallucinations again, similar to the old ones. Relating to ghosts, demons, and Satan. I have also been having panic attacks where the physical symptoms are strong and are very much tied to the hallucinations. Paranoia has always been there but lately it has become stronger than usual (paranoia prevents me from explaining further). I will add that the paranoia has somewhat disrupted my sleep as I have to sleep in different rooms of the house every night and it has brought back my insomnia(chronic) to an extent. Another problem is that I feel completely detached from my emotions. I know what emotions i should be feeling and in a sense i do. It is hard to explain, but it’s as though there are two people inside me, one feels the emotions and the other does not feel anything, completely logical. They SHOULD be connected but they are not, and I am not sure if this is because of my mood stabilizer or something else. And no I do not believe it to be another person, it is all me. My emotions and feelings are unable to be…felt. Lastly I can feel emotions on substances such as alcohol, but I am a sober addict and do not want to head down a path like that again.

If you read all that please tell me if my diagnosis could be wrong, as that would help persuade me to tell my psychiatrist. Or if you have taken mood stabilizers with a similar side-effect.

Real last note, I use medical terms when regarding my "issues" but in my mind I do not seem them as that, it is to make this as understandable as possible, thank you.

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Is there any physical illness that causes anxiety or any other mental disorder?

i was diagnosed with borderline personality years ago, the mental health system up to now has FAILED me and im still struggling to get the help and care i need at the age of 31 ..

i have ptsd symptoms , all the symptoms and want to be tested and diagnosed for it, as well as the borderline , i also suspect bipolar , as i have some bipolar symptoms – racing thoughts everyday, cant concentrate or hold a thought…..forget constantly……thoughts scattered everywhere….struggle to organize.

i have badanxiety, obsessive thoughts and worries , hyper vigillant outside…on edge…get panic attacks and palpitations…….struggle with a lot of rage and anger still……..years ago used to have involuntary outbursts of rage that used to ” take over ” me outside……just before the outbursts , id remember my thoughts racing badly, feel extremely anxious, hyper vigillant……feel paranoid that people were threatening me……used to struggle with a hostile angry posture….threatening…..on guard , then id just ‘ lose it ‘ – and start attacking people , lashing out……..making a public scene.

that was many years ago now, i controlled the outburst all by myself, without any psychiatric help…….and since then been searching for proper care and help…………….and via the internet, been trying to research my symptoms and whats wrong with me..

i put it down so far to my diagnosis years ago of BPD, – which i accept, but also know i have PTSD, and put alot of the symptoms because of that, im also wondering if bipolar plays a part to.

i have symptoms that bpd doesnt cover, throughout my life ive suffered great psychological abuse , a few physical attacks including a head injury in a street attack, when i lost control of rage in 1997 , my skull was never cracked, but the skin torn open on top, ive also suffered constantly being victimized in life.

alot of people wouldnt of been able to take the stuff what i took and still with stand.

recentley i stumbled on a question here which made me think, could any of my symptoms be caused by physical illness ? – ie : thyroid problems ?
if they were , what would i do about it ? how would i get tested ?, and what would i ask to be tested for ?

here was the question :

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AgMD2nL9y3_.5MQVlQJ_cj3ty6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090322142249AAA3WB7

it was only short and there was only one answer.

does anyone know anything physical that can cause all those psychiatric symptoms ?

someone please help ! iam tormented by this at the moment

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i was diagnosed with borderline personality years ago, the mental health system up to now has FAILED me and im still struggling to get the help and care i need at the age of 31 ..

i have ptsd symptoms , all the symptoms and want to be tested and diagnosed for it, as well as the borderline , i also suspect bipolar , as i have some bipolar symptoms – racing thoughts everyday, cant concentrate or hold a thought…..forget constantly……thoughts scattered everywhere….struggle to organize.

i have badanxiety, obsessive thoughts and worries , hyper vigillant outside…on edge…get panic attacks and palpitations…….struggle with a lot of rage and anger still……..years ago used to have involuntary outbursts of rage that used to ” take over ” me outside……just before the outbursts , id remember my thoughts racing badly, feel extremely anxious, hyper vigillant……feel paranoid that people were threatening me……used to struggle with a hostile angry posture….threatening…..on guard , then id just ‘ lose it ‘ – and start attacking people , lashing out……..making a public scene.

that was many years ago now, i controlled the outburst all by myself, without any psychiatric help…….and since then been searching for proper care and help…………….and via the internet, been trying to research my symptoms and whats wrong with me..

i put it down so far to my diagnosis years ago of BPD, – which i accept, but also know i have PTSD, and put alot of the symptoms because of that, im also wondering if bipolar plays a part to.

i have symptoms that bpd doesnt cover, throughout my life ive suffered great psychological abuse , a few physical attacks including a head injury in a street attack, when i lost control of rage in 1997 , my skull was never cracked, but the skin torn open on top, ive also suffered constantly being victimized in life.

alot of people wouldnt of been able to take the stuff what i took and still with stand.

recentley i stumbled on a question here which made me think, could any of my symptoms be caused by physical illness ? – ie : thyroid problems ?
if they were , what would i do about it ? how would i get tested ?, and what would i ask to be tested for ?

here was the question :

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AgMD2nL9y3_.5MQVlQJ_cj3ty6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090322142249AAA3WB7

it was only short and there was only one answer.

does anyone know anything physical that can cause all those psychiatric symptoms ?

im not looking for a deep, emotional answer to this question just knowledge.

Tags: alot of people, anger, bipolar, bipolar symptoms, borderline personality, bpd, diagnosis, head injury, life alot, mental health system, obsessive thoughts, outburst, Panic Attacks, posture, psychiatric help, psychological abuse, ptsd symptoms, rage, skull, worries