i was diagnosed with borderline personality years ago, the mental health system up to now has FAILED me and im still struggling to get the help and care i need at the age of 31 ..
i have ptsd symptoms , all the symptoms and want to be tested and diagnosed for it, as well as the borderline , i also suspect bipolar , as i have some bipolar symptoms – racing thoughts everyday, cant concentrate or hold a thought…..forget constantly……thoughts scattered everywhere….struggle to organize.
i have badanxiety, obsessive thoughts and worries , hyper vigillant outside…on edge…get panic attacks and palpitations…….struggle with a lot of rage and anger still……..years ago used to have involuntary outbursts of rage that used to ” take over ” me outside……just before the outbursts , id remember my thoughts racing badly, feel extremely anxious, hyper vigillant……feel paranoid that people were threatening me……used to struggle with a hostile angry posture….threatening…..on guard , then id just ‘ lose it ‘ – and start attacking people , lashing out……..making a public scene.
that was many years ago now, i controlled the outburst all by myself, without any psychiatric help…….and since then been searching for proper care and help…………….and via the internet, been trying to research my symptoms and whats wrong with me..
i put it down so far to my diagnosis years ago of BPD, – which i accept, but also know i have PTSD, and put alot of the symptoms because of that, im also wondering if bipolar plays a part to.
i have symptoms that bpd doesnt cover, throughout my life ive suffered great psychological abuse , a few physical attacks including a head injury in a street attack, when i lost control of rage in 1997 , my skull was never cracked, but the skin torn open on top, ive also suffered constantly being victimized in life.
alot of people wouldnt of been able to take the stuff what i took and still with stand.
recentley i stumbled on a question here which made me think, could any of my symptoms be caused by physical illness ? – ie : thyroid problems ?
if they were , what would i do about it ? how would i get tested ?, and what would i ask to be tested for ?
here was the question :
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AgMD2nL9y3_.5MQVlQJ_cj3ty6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20090322142249AAA3WB7
it was only short and there was only one answer
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